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Note 79: Power Beyond Imagining

Power beyond imagining curls up at my feet
and dances for me supine
upon the face of the earth. So few even believe it
and even among those who do so few
who know it first-hand, even among those
who have been direly in its presence,
felt the spray off rocks, and heart it roar
but hardly notice while they toss
a ball back and forth beside it
in order to keep from being bored.

Maybe they’re taken in by your name
O Pacific Oean! and believe the entrance is
easy, conflict only for those few billion
bipeds prancing about along your shores
for whom conflict is a spectator sport.

If only they knew you!

Are you and the Atlantic one?
(No, I don’t see it…)
Are you two?
(How could you be separate
from each other
or the Indian, Caspian, Baltic…. even
from land-locked salt and dead lakes
even highly diluted salt lakes
called by those who speak English
“fresh water” …. and the rivers, too?)

Just who are you, O Mighty One,
O Vast and Unknown One
Pacific Ocean.

But are you really so different even from us?
Are you? We, who are
mostly salt-water, too….
Are we one with you?
(No, I don’t see how we can be…)
Are we separate from you?
(No. That’s impossible.)

What are the chances that a few molecules
Accidentally bounced into each other
within you, and slowly grew over time
beyond comprehension —
though we can express it in numbers,
we can’t imagine it in any detail)
to become

us?

What are the odds of anything
being here at all for us to
question, let alone we ourselves
be here to ask the quedstions?

What are the odds that we know
anything at all about anything
to any depth
as we play along the shore
trying not to fall in?

Note 78: fragmenta me

Where the house splintered,
walls at odd angles and uneven
tilted disjunct floors
they looked natural to me
because

they are exactly
disaligned with my world
that runs on rails from station to station
but derails every 2 or three clicks
to part the thickets and brambles along

the road and stumble around
often mumbling to myself
(monsters blazing up from the earth
and dakinis always cutting off my head)
about a jumble

  1. myself and my pitiful little wants and needs
  2. Tibetan (Nyingma) Buddhism
  3. cats lying on me, near me
    rubbing up against me and
    getting excited
  4. play guitar. sing. learn new music.
  5. read
    1. social networking posts
    2. saddhanas
    3. email
    4. websites
    5. programming code
    6. street signs
    7. menus
    8. billboards
    9. things painted or stuck on cars and trucks
    10. (with my ears): The Kindly Ones
    11. Twentieth Century German Poetry
    12. Being Right Here: A Dzogchen Treasure Text of Nuiden Dorje entitled The Mirror of Clear Meaning
    13. Fredy Neptune
    14. Lives of the Poets
    15. Mandelstam
    16. junk mail
    17. Celan
    18. Carson
    19. websites
    20. Tsetaeva
    21. Duncan
    22. Akhmatova
    23. manuals
    24. Pound
    25. junk mail
    26. Olson
    27. configurations
    28. and other poets and other stuff…
  6. broad-spectrum technical work
    the schedule a shattered windshield

    shattered by what you ask?

    use your head.

  7. redwood forests, rivers, pacific ocean
    sharp edge where the harbor seals live
  8. listen. [LIST NOT AVAILABLE AT THIS TIME]
  9. play with cats.
  10. talk with friends.
  11. sit.
  12. or whatever comes up
    or whatever

but shuffled
in then
disrupted in
seemingly random
intervals

but always in this pure chaos
of thought and information
that some refer to as my life
the sweep of a non-dual
encounter with a moment

NOW


Note 77: I Want A River Empty

Robert Duncan weaves and warps the Navarro
river in his Passages
“the dream in which all things are living”
with a wind projecting gusts
from the Pacific, west, rippling whole planes
in little wave-forms on a surface
flowing upriver, a miniature
sea-storm at the shallow edge.

From reddish-brown through brown
pale bark, dead leaf, grey green
bush, and waxy California laurel
to the deep and dark green redwood
full color-circle back to its bark,
“It’s hid in its showing forth.”

The few people downstream
feel invaded by me so invade me
seemingly just to show
that they can. This is
a lovely spot, but won’t
be coming
anytime back soon.

I want a river empty
of human voices not
from dislike but from surfeit
of quotidian murmurings
wanting, not wanting,
caring, not caring, sudden
anger over sounds,
splash of selfish whims and
squiggles in the sand.