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Monthly Archives: February 2005

luna

Luna was living on the streets of San Francisco, in the Tender Nob (i.e., the swath between Nob (Nabob) Hill and the Tenderloin) with her nearly starved mother and sister when she and her sister were rescued. Her mother died on the spot. Did seeing her kittens being cared for free her to leave this saha world?

Luna (already so named when we adopted her from Harold Brown – aka “H”, her rescuer) is a brilliant little thing with some kind of lung damage. Dr. Doe pointed out that it’s impossible to tell what kind of nasty stuff she was exposed to as an extremely wild little kitten living on the streets downtown.

As I said, she’s brilliant. But don’t let her tell you that she’s mastered the Nimzo-Indian Defence. She blunders frequently when playing that defence, and if you ask her to write down the first 15 moves of a fairly common variation, she refuses – but not because she just can’t be bothered. The real reason is that she can never remember the best response beyond about 12 moves.

Well, that was in her headier, more intellectual days in San Francisco. These days, in Willits, she prefers to curl up in the laundry after it comes out of the dryer.

cloverhop

After taking 1.5 hours to get to Santa Rosa from Oakland, getting off the freeway seemed like a sweet idea, even though it meant driving through rush hour streets — still easier than just about anytime in San Francisco. So, I followed Santa Rosa Road from the south end through downtown to the north end where it turns into Mendocino Road and then something else and something else and meandered over to the west side of 101 through vineyards, past wineries and various rural and rural-suburban demographics, back to the east side of 101 and more of the similar until crossing the Russian River at Guerneville and turning north-east on River Road.

Ah! A little strip of park on a short cliff, fairly steep walk down lawn to a bench. Secondary-schoolers on the other side of the chain-link fence, under the abandoned train trestle throwing tree branches into the river. The fun went out of it for them when they realized that the buzz-cut old fat man was staying a while, and they soon left.

Up river, on the other side, someone had waded nearly halfway into the river fishing. I sent a wish that he wouldn’t catch anything, but that in return for this disappointment he be completely fulfilled and happy for the rest of his life. This was taken there on my cell phone:

Russian River at Guerneville

From there, I drove in a generally northern direction along roads that looked like they would skirt the river. After a steep, winding climb on a poorly maintained, very narrow two-lane road densely lined with houses on both sides, slightly similar to parts of the , the decent, through a similar demographic, landed along the other bank of the Russian River. I didn’t see myself crossing anywhere, and I was still going northerly, but now the river was rushing wild on my left instead of my right. Magic? More likely inattention.

Soon it was back to 101 at Healdsburg, on past AstiGeyserville, and on past Cloverdale and through Hopland.

But before passing through Hopland, there’s that lovely stretch of 101 along the Russian River after Cloverdale. I didn’t stop, but used my cell phone while driving through to snap a pic through the windshield:

Cloverdale-Hopland 101

Doesn’t do the stretch of road any justice at all. Was going to take more pics, but dropped my cell phone into my coffee cup. Fortunately, the cup was nearly empty, but the phone still took a bath and it may still be in critical condition now — it seemed to be working okay this morning, but then the screen fritzed. Wouldn’t mind so much if the sacrifice had been for a better picture, but this is the best I got.

the cows

On oak and grass hillsides
heifers graze in warm sun
a stray cloud cooling the hide
in a rural northwest afternoon.

As I pull out at 4 am
cattle trucks sneak by in the dark
empty
to neighboring farms.

Oak and grass meander
to sharp hammers and guns
in one sheet metal rattle
of a 50 foot truck.

For Bob Hughes

For Bob Hughes

My rear end is out of joint — a strut popped loose
On the Richmond Bridge
So I’m stuck up north
With the car in the garage
Troubleshooting databases, hand-helds, and photocopiers
By phone and wireless laptop
From a window
Outlooking to ragged clouds patched with blue
Above cows grazing
On bright green hills…
And it’s only going to cost me $500!!!

For Gary Snyder

For Gary Snyder
Whose poems
Encourage me to
Stop reading
Hear rain dipping off a roof
See dormant moss-covered maples
Smell a woodstove
Feel mist on a gentle breeze

death in petaluma 02/18/05

You can’t spend what you ain’t got
You can’t lose what you ain’t never had.

(Muddy Waters)

It’s 12:09 pm. I got up at 10 am, got a cup of coffee, gave Luna our black cat some medicine, and telecommuted to the office. It’s a grey day, but the tree-covgered hills are shrouded in mist, the rolling hills are bright green with grasses, crows and woodpeckers are making their noises, and roosters are crowing.

Last night I left the office at 9 pm and hit the end of the parking lot on 101 because of a police investigation into a fatal crash deemed to be criminal. It took about two hours to get through and I didn’t get home until 2 am, an hour before I usually get up. But it was merely an inconvenience for me. I didn’t die.

My feeling that drivers of Ford Explorers and late-model Jeeps tend to be assholes was confirmed by one of each of them switching lanes and tail-gating in front of me when the average speed was about 3 miles per hour and there was nowhere for anyone to go – and they were the only cars I saw doing that at all over nearly 2 hours.

I was listening to a new (to my collection) Blind Willie McTell CD the other day while driving through Santa Rosa. I heard:

Cigarettes is my rite
Whiskey is my creed.

I thought that was really great so I listened to it again. Turns out the song is different, it says

Cigarettes is my ruin
Whiskey is my crave

Oh well, I like it both ways, though cigarettes are definitely my rite, not sure if it’s Roman Catholic, High Anglican, Orthodox, Suni, or Nyingma (probably none — more likely some form of death worship), but lighting up a cigarette is definitely my favorite practice and rite. I wish that it weren’t so, but it is. Blind Willie didn’t like the situation, either, but there was nothing he could do about it.

Light on the Richmond Bridge 02/17/05

This is the first blog entry.

At 6:03 this morning, according to the clock in my car, which is about 5 minutes slow, I saw light in the sky while crossing the Richmond Bridge from San Rafael driving toward Richmond and thence on to Oakland. It was a welcomed sight.Black-fingered dawn, since rain clouds radiated up in strips from the eastern still sunless horizon. I don’t recall Homer ever referring to the color of dawn as anything but rosy-fingered (which must also include radiating clouds from the horizon), but it sure wasn’t rosy-fingered this morning.

The first time I drove this commute, id est, Willits to Oakland, on December 20, 2004, I left at 5:00 a.m. It felt as though the sun would never come up again. That it would be dark forever. That morning, I first saw light on the bridge at somewhere around 7:30. It was a relief.

These days, I leave the house at about 4:00 a.m., sometimes a few minutes earlier and sometimes a couple of minutes later. Sitting in stalled traffic in Petaluma is not my idea of a good time. Leaving at 4:00 it rarely takes more than 2.5 hours. Leaving at 4:30 can often take 3.0 hours.

Going home has similar defects. If I walk out of the office by 2:30 p.m., I’ll usually get home by 5:30 (yesterday, I made it at 5:05). Walking out at 3:30 could keep me on the road until 7:00 or 7:30.