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Note 29: uNtitled

The sound
of your name
echoes
through thigh
belly, and chest,

clear roads,
open doors,
no one responds.

A deceiving
fog
wraps morning.
That glare
over there -
- a star?
Streetlight;
hazy mind.

I’ll always remember
this day
weeping
so often
so calm
as a grave.

One hundred
letters
I’ll never post
vanished
in sleep.

Why crying
again flaring
nostalgia
in a dense
cold dawn.

You wanted me
to let go.
I let go,
and now
inhabit
your past,

wondering
how we’ll tell
the stories
of each other
to our next
lovers.

(Note: Impromptu “haiku” and “senryu” that I posted on Twitter were strung together and disordered, and torn apart in an attempt to produce a unified whole. Even this is impromptu.)

Note 20: Simultaneous Friday/Saturday

At light speed
Through
Planetary distance
The assemblage begins.

It erupts and condenses,
On and off, open and closed junction
And switch, limb and tributary
Branch into fields of bright matter
Spread wide on Earth to shunt
Into lightening through metal.
Receptive cloud, resultant wave,
From form to chaos to form with
Unknowable speed,
Orgasmic waves recede from
An event horizon to
Stream into gesture and shape.

Through tremor and heartbeat
The throb of her vast descent
From bliss and primal completion
Through this storm of electrical
Dust and disjecta in plenum
Of bright flashes for raiment,
She assembles, as singular houri
In magnetic fluxion,
Her avatar, low resolution
Phase shift, engorged with
beauty and passion.

The bulls are entranced.

In a moment brief and subtle
Drawn into sweet embrace
Through a vacuum of time,
Her cosmic, tumultuous dance
Winds down through fluid
Successive
Enfoldings
To recline
In the arms of a being of light.

Ronald Johnson: Ark I, Beam 2

Cloud to ground, the ice electrons move — negative to positive — in stepped bright thrust. Each fifty yard step occurs in less than one one-millionth of a second, the whole zig-zag one to ten yards in luminous diameter. This but corona to a rose-prickle core hotter than the surface of the sun. Positive to negative — the stroke returns gigantic spark, it’s many-stroked flash a flicker faster than the eye. Every ‘point’ on this returned jagged channel knocks molecules for miles in links . . .

The circumambient!

in balanced dissent:
enlightenment — on abysm bent.

Angels caged

in what I see,
externity in gauged
antiphony.

A lineaged clarity.

(Mid-age. Brought to my knee.)
1935-70

The altitude
unglued

A god in a cloud,

aloud,

Exactitude the flood.

(Ronald Johnson's Ark is a postmodern masterpiece epic poem in
the tradition of Ezra Pound, Louis Zukofsky, Robert Duncan, Charles
Olson, H.D., and William Carlos Williams [exclusions from the list are
unintentional]. It has been out of print since 1996. Since the great
poet has died, since I have a copy, and since I'm not looking for
profit or any other gain, I'm casting copyright concerns aside and
printing this excerpt from Ark.)

Note 16: Obsession

In a dark night
A fuse burns.

Nothing else holds
The attention.

Only the fuse exists
Sparkling and lovely.

With such a fuse
Explosion must come soon.

And you wait.
And you watch.

Your focus narrows
To the bright light.

It must happen soon,
It’s all so enticing.

It must come,
It will come.

It doesn’t come.
The fuse just burns.

There is nothing
At the end of the fuse.

Note 15: Taking Leave

Many things are coming to an end.
None ends by my wish.

The feral cats will miss the bowls of food
I leave under the shelter for them
In the freezing rain.

Dying slowly must be like this —
Relinquishing responsibility,
The end of what you want,
Taking leave of what you know,
Saying goodbye
Forever.

Note 14: The Gift of the Muses

Ruling classes descend from Zeus.
But one whom the Muses love
is lord of all the world’s beauty,
His tongue is smooth and sweet.
Even when fresh turbulence
shakes him and shivers
the pulse of his blood,
the poet, cheerful concierge to the Muses,
sings about ancient men and their prowess,
and of the always happy Gods
who live on Olympus, the ultimate acropolis.

This singing, this consonance of cunning
vibration frees him from the vortex
and cleans out the infection of sorrow
when the vivacious daughters of Mnemosyne,
with their infinite charms,
compel him to new beauty and thought.

— Hesiod, Theogony, my very free adaptation.

Note 13: A Need to Know

Prolegomena:

Oedipus: What do you mean?
You know of something but refuse to speak?
Tiresias: I will not bring this pain upon us both,
Neither upon you nor on myself. Why is it
You question me and waste your labor? I
Will tell you nothing.
Oedipus: You would provoke a stone! Tell it, you villain,
Tell it and do not stand there quietly
Unmoved and balking at the issue.
Tiresias: You blame my temper but you do not see
Your own that lives within you; it is me
You chide.
Oedipus: Who would not feel his temper rise
At words like these with which you shame?
Tiresias: Of themselves things will come, although I hide them
And breathe no word of them.
Oedipus: Since they will come
Tell them to me.
Tiresias: I will say nothing further.
Against this answer let your temper rage
As wildly as you can.

—Sophocles, Oedipus the King (David Greene Trans.)

A Need to Know
(Version zero)

Oh, Oedipus, Oedipus,
You just couldn’t let it go, could you?
Just had to keep pushing
Pushing harder the more clear it became.
Tiresias tried to warn you
Jocasta tried to warn you
The air and space themselves wanted
You to back off.

But you just had to know.

Was it better that way in the long run?
Not sure; it’s not an Aeschylean Trilogy
But Sophocles’ stand alone play.

My young tom cat, deep black
With the mind of a siamese
Is like that, too. He can’t just
Let things be. He just has to know
Everything about anything he sees
Or hears or smells. He’s a brilliant little rascal,
Although he can not vote.

We had the wood stove stoked up blazing
With oak last January. The top of it boiled water
Faster than a gas stove. He understood
The temp on the sides: his nose is
Heat-sensitive. But
He wondered about the top.

At various times on sequential nights
I clapped at him, yelled – even shot him
With a water bottle when he got that
Look in his eyes and crouched.
But he couldn’t get it out of his mind.

When it wasn’t lit, he would thoroughly
Investige the question: what’s the
Hidden meaning when fire crackles
And wind rushes out of the
Pipe through the roof so he
Jumped and landed four paws on
The searing sequel to his question.

It hurt him. It hurt him badly
The moon went full
Twice before he healed.
But he knew. He knew the answer.
And once he knew the answer
Turned his curious mind
To the movements of quail.

Note 12: Aeschylus’ Prometheus Bound

The first two brief monologues from Prometheus Bound — my “improvisation” — not a translation. I didn’t take it from the Greek but from David Greene’s translation in his and Lattimore’s Complete Greek Tragedies, Aeschylus II.

Last night, I was sitting outside after the first rain in months. The air was very clean. I was tired. It felt as though my mind was refusing to function, but I decided to simply accept the limitations I experienced. There was only a very slight chill. I began reading David Greene’s translation of Prometheus Bound aloud. As I read, I began to change the text to fit the way I wanted to hear it, reading through it several times aloud. Then I wrote down what I was reciting, with modifications as I wrote. So that’s all this is, just something for enjoyment. And, yes, I’m aware that I do great violence and much harm to the currently approved style of poetry and translation (not to mention what I’ve done to Aeschylus). But I’m bored with the currently accepted style (but not, most assuredly not, bored with Aeschylus).

(Version 0.2)

Power:
We’ve hit the world’s limit.
These are Scythian mountains, never climbed.
Haephustus! You must obey
The Father’s will laid upon you to nail
This miscreant to these craggy peaks
With shackles of unbreakable diamond chain.
After all, it was your adornment,
Blazing fire, the pantechnocrat, that he snatched
And passed on to dying men.
For this crime he shall pay dues to the Gods
That he may learn to submit and enjoy
The limitless supremacy of Zeus
And quit his pathetic philanthropic addiction.

Hephaestus:
In you His commands are perfectly executed,
Power and Violence, with zero impedance.
But my heart balks at slamming and chaining
A God to this snowy bluff.
He’s close family.
But I’m forced to take heart for it —
Slighting the Father leads to precarious situations.

Great Engineer, Son of Themis the Honest One,
You don’t want this. Neither do I.
Yet I’ll shackle you with weatherproof bronze
On this wilderness outcrop.
You won’t hear a mortal voice.
You won’t see a mortal’s body.
The sun will drill into your flesh
And cancer the glow of your skin.
When night intervenes
With her cape full of stars
You will bless her,
But at dawn the sun will
Burn ice from your frost-bitten limbs.
At each moment you will feel torture,
Varied for maximum effect,
Grind you down.
The one who will end it
Isn’t even sperm in his father’s testicles.

That’s your reward for philanthropic slumming.
You, a God, not afraid
Of the anger of Gods,
Perverted justice
And honored the low.
So now you keep watch
On this ugly cliff, always
Standing, knees unbending, sleepless.
Oh, you will cry, you will moan, you will pray,
But it won’t do any good.
Zeus has a titanium mind, prayer is soft,
And every new ruler is harsh.

Note 11: Nothing

What is the most difficult thing to do?
Nothing.
When the emotions rage, what is the best thing to do?
Nothing.
What is the best thing to say?
Nothing.

Note 9: It Must Be

It must be more than her absence
Objects imposing their silence
on wave after wave of despair.

It must be the long
Undisciplined train
Of my own disheveled mind

Flapping in a wind
Blown out of my eyes
And circling back round to my ears.

It must be more than disappointment
More than a simple
Lack of presence.

It must be.