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Note 156: How to Work Faster

  

Factories fascinated him. He read management magazines.

He lived in a manufactured world, everything

He touched was mass produced. In a factory.

  

After the eye was gone, it was time to get a job.

“You can’t do this job with one eye.” said the guy

Who did the hiring. “Give me three days.

If you don’t want me then, I’ll leave and admit it.

I can do the job.”

  

He had no idea what the job was.

Electronic substrate silk-sceen printing

For digital clocks and watch faces.

Must have been 1975. Digital clocks

And watches just hitting the market.

  

Slate black chips, electronic circuit

Lines in silver or gold paint on one side

Rows of eights in brighter ink on the other.

“3,000 chips a night.”

  

Night shift. Squeegee the screen.

Place chip on platen. Step on pedal.

Take chip from platen, carefully –

Don’t smear it. Use a spatula. Put the chip

On the conveyor belt between you

And woman on identical machine

Bakes for a few feet and drops three inches

15 feet away where inspectors

Seek broken lines

Through fluorescent ring around

The magnifying center glass.

  

Everyone had to produce. Everyone had

To inspect. Rotation. He couldn’t see

Fast enough. Then he noticed.

It’s a pattern. To look for imperfections

Is the long way home. Look instead for

Perfect patterns. Remove imperfect patterns.

Inspecting sped up. Errors ebbed.

  

But it was the machines. The sound patterns.

The rhythm. He sped the tempo,

To keep from getting bored

  

And to blot out the radio less

Like music than like someone

Shouting out the time.

  

The machine fused with him.

He often awoke believing he’d fallen

Asleep at work at the Machine

He could play like a drum kit.

Tempo expansion. Syncopation.

  

By the time his output hit 12,000 he wanted

To scream. He went to the office.

“I quit.” They said, “We’ll double your pay.”

He said, “Too late, I can’t take it.”

  

Of course, he just turned around and got a job

In a different factory. Jet airplane filters.

But that is a different story entirely.

  

And he hadn’t yet learned that there are ways

That are neither numbness nor insanity

To engage with seemingly infinite repetition.

  

Note 155: This and That

  

  

  

Bartok and Mingus

II B.S. and Concerto for Orchestra complete one another. ~Anonymous

Each

Makes me

Want

The other.

  

  

  

Same Numbers Back

15. The number of steps for a complete breath cycle

When I was a runner

If I ran faster, I breathed faster

If I breathed faster, I ran faster

When I was 15.

  

44. Is a different thing altogether.

Henry Aaron’s first year in the Majors

Was the year I was born baby October

  

In 67 on a baseball card:

as number 44

he’d hit 44 HRs in 3 seasons

  

Clinched him favorite,

Yet he was obscure

In Southern California.

  

44 repeats

Healdsburg often

04:44 in red

  

Did you hear? 2′s a Voodoo power number

Why Hatian boss man’s license plate is 222

But 44 blows that away (Remington)

  

When he was 44 the 2nd year after 755

And asses tearing him down for Babe Ruth

Was… is… just more Selma 65.

  

Imaginary numbers became difficult

In about ’74 after I hit my head

When a GP taught me a mantra to recite

A million times. The strange thing

  

is the use of “i” for the square root of -1.

Imaginary indeed, and spelled in the manner of Cummings

his first use of lower case first personal pronoun

in print 23 I think it was, 2 before XLI and 3 before is 5

  

Titusville in 62 when a Titan exploded at dusk

A kid standing on a swing thought, “this is it

This is the end of the world

They’re always talking about.

  

And the death counts on Cronkite

With George Wallace and Werner Von Braun

In Alabama for the Apollo show

Soon to be in a theater near you

  

T.V. anyway. But how many years

Was Viet Nam a U.S. occupation?

How many years Iraq?

  

Note 154: In the Mean Time

  

…that one day

Not long from now

I’ll be no more

Than passing thoughts…

  

…Crab nebula

Unmoved…

Jammed roads…

Sun rise

Sun set…

  

…All I am

And love

Gone

From me…

  

Intestinal carcenoma

For this gentle cat

Whose two-toned talk

Leaned against my leg

That last night under frosted

Stars mom was still

Partly coherent

On the cell convinced

Me to find her a home

So called her “Lucky”

Temporarily

For evading the neighbor’s

Rifle, the one they kill

Pigs with, and black tailed

Deer and bears, in season, then

Just passed, and cats

If they see ‘em but I kept her

And she’s stuck with the name.

  

Now the vet wants to kill her

And she’s still not ready to go

Soft belly up for touch

Happy always just to be

With me and I won’t

Force her…

  

Should I go, too,

Late April, May, so that…

Should someone care

Longer days shorter

Nights growing buds and

Leaves…

…rivers crested…

Transient skies…

…oceans…

  

Note 153: So this is it…

  

This is what I wished for when

Very young when they’d smile at me and say

Oh, what a pretty girl — thought pretty girl

Or ugly girl you’re trying to cheer up

Even 10 or 12 years later Robert Welch

(Not John Birch himself) after he failed

To see similarities Russian neighborhoods

Freedom fighters he called them

Throwing Molotov cocktails at tanks

Had with Watts was it ’71?

The young lady in the 3rd row

He said

And didn’t like my question.

  

Yes, that’s it

I wanted to be my projection

Of Sarge on “Combat!” — brave

In harsh lights and bright

Smells, not continuously flooding

With feeling skin and ears

And why they worried

That I might be too polite but back then

People hadn’t started scaring me yet

With violence and hate

Rather I hadn’t yet begun

To torment myself with puberty

  

Already I wanted

Tough skin, actual callus

Bark, shield, palace, condom,

Magic circle, mantic formulae

Procaine, insulation, shade —

Not realizing that Bartok’s fourth

Would never sound more fully

Than it would have then

Had I known it existed

and sat down and listened

  

  

On the one hand

  

For in one way the pro and the other way con

What is it you’re going to call yourself?

No matter which way you soar

Up into the air or down into a canyon

The soaring of falling, the falling of flight

“You are” – “I am” – this

Box, mostly invisible but certain

In that delerious way, your impression

Upon others and theirs upon you.

That judgment jettisoned with the other

Would bring a miniscule improvement

To the turmoil we were born to live with

A grain of sand in the Santa Cruz sand dunes

And the dunes are nothing but grains of sand

Each breath could be fully aware

If it were.

Sometimes you think you’re so brilliant

Sometimes you think you’re so dull

Jumping judgment to judgment

From branch to branch.

Does matter?

  

  

begun while listening 1 1 2011

  

In the driven plasma this moment secretes

The pulsating rectitude of your face in a glass

Two violins chased by viola and cello

Spill out onto the night frost and steam

  

Your torpor declines engagement

With millions of little white birds

You believe have devoured you

Though you must decide whether to begrudge

Or rejoice in their enjoyment

Of what little was left of your body

Washed ashore so many times

Animal driftwood with pulse

Blasting forward and on through zero visibility

With the aid of various machines

That imitate sentience

Can even write intelligible sentences

Which seems to be beyond your grasp

Within all these prototype

Cataclysmic events: big bangs

Cyclonic bursts exploding volcanoes

Eroded and rained on for 5,000 years

So you can visit the park (Gorgeous!)

If you’re not too tired too jaded

Too dull in sense and perception

The visible nearly zero

Yet none of it escapes departs from

What it is or where it is or the fact

That container and contained

Don’t exist in the relationship

Implied by their bifurcation

So there are no referents

And — QED — in the modality of speech

Nothing given voice to exists.

  

  

Note 150: Lines Found in Montgomery Woods, 12-31-2010

  

  

What was

What was between you and me

What wasn’t

What wasn’t between you and me

What is what isn’t

Between me and you

  

The abstraction

The memory

Of what we were

And were not

  

Identities of questionable province

With or without papers

Histrionics tears love

Laughter

[...]

  

Yes officer I assure you

That’s her

How do you know?

Her voice

And who are you?

Why don’t you ask her?

  

These trees the whole time

Before then until we’re both gone

Whoever it is we are

Or are not

Fire logging new erosions

New destruction, yet here

With or without

Clinical diagnosis

Before Columbus

And here after everyone we know

  

Dissociative

  

Hyper associative

  

Never the same

When we touch

Who we are who we were

  

This shape the water makes

Made by which water?

Liquid fingerprint

By whom made this pattern

Identity

  

Individual?

  

What you want

What I want

Expanses

Framed conceptually

Fed back pruned

Elaborated into minimalist projects

  

Much of the year the ground is dry

The rest in flood

  

This says nothing

There’s much to be said

As the air chills

And my fingers shake

There’s nothing to say

  

Does this redwood before me

Speak so slowly

It sounds like my own mind?

  

If this water touched nothing

Yet flowed in this shape

What sound would it make?

  

  

Note 149: Narrative Sketch: 1st Person Rosonny

  

[Editor’s note: What follows is the first section of a long poem found among the papers of Rhosonny. Whether he considered it finished or not is unknown. The poem is scattered across paper tablets and electronic devices linked to and from several locations on the web and on several local hard drives. Editing and collating is taking longer than the editor expected. Rather than wait until the whole has been redacted, I decided to release the first section as it currently stands. Whether or not Rhosonny would approve is an open question though in my opinion he wouldn’t. Nevertheless, I persist. The poem in plot and as a whole seems to be a circuit of travel, freight trains and hitch-hiking, while reading the Pisan Cantos. Though he seems to have arrived after already traveling, the poem says nothing of this and begins in the middle. The editor is intrigued by the question: did he begin the poem here because this is where and when he began to read the Pisan Cantos or does he see some relationship between the particular Canto and the action or is it all matter of pure chance, if there really is such a thing?]

  

  

1. of no fortune, and with a name to come

  

As the sun made it’s move to light up the earth

Western cascades, an edge of sun,

The old volcanoes and a

Mount Tai, magnetic

Gigantic nuclear furnace flares over

The glacial ridge, the Pacific Ring of Fire

[“sunt lumina”:

Onto a plain of lava that flowed from the east.

Älsé, Tsanchifin, Tsanklightemifa, Tsawokot

Long before Skinner’s Trading Post

Eugene, that is.

The players:

Vulcan, Hephaistus

Athena, Gaia, Erichthoneus

[Mt Taishan

I walked northwest, Wilamette to the right

[what you depart from is not the way

She’d gotten married.

[neither with lions nor leopards attended

She wanted to see me.

[is that not our delight?

I wanted her.

[the wind is part of the process

[the rain is part of the process

I liked to travel rough.

Aphrodite…

Bathrobe at the door, naked under

Points to guest room

[for this stone giveth sleep

Returned to her husband’s bed.

After a few hours sleep

[with a painted paradise

The husband was cordial.

The husband left.

In came her bearded consort

[the grove wants an altar

“Maybe we should please the lady

Together” he said and she smiled

[it exists only in fragments

But I didn’t have the heart.

Barbara Martel scared me a little

Half Shoshone, a few other native slivers the rest French.

[the Muses are daughters of memory

Dark eyes. Dark hair. Wide hips. Voice of an angel.

[the sharp song with sun under its radiance

Nor so young to love a woman for singing

Carried concealed and two knives.

Athena…

Bully, way back, thought he was tough —

300 lb jock, ugly, mean,

But not club footed, not limping

[thought he was Zeus ram

I’d faced him down long before

Called him “Rich Chicken” —

[the ass eared militarist

Had her cornered, I arrived,

He departed, quickly..

[the root of the process

Since then she’d always been kind.

Ares…

She felt like more than I

Not her stunning beauty

An Emily Deschanel with olive skin,

[cheekbone, by verbal manifestation

Obsidian hair, irides so dark

[and that certain images

Rainbows where she walked

Pupils swam in them

Light lyric soprano clear as a silver bell

[enigma forgetting the times and seasons

With no flaw, resonant, pure, no tremolo,

Nor so young to love a woman for singing

But her mind. Her independence. Her experience.

Part time on reservations,

The rest in towns.

[time is not, time is the evil, beloved

Just couldn’t though at times wished

Here in the not done

She’d married since last I saw her

And I didn’t like her friend

[one tanka entitled the shadow

Though later, just she and I, by the river…

[so light is the urging, so ordered the dark petals of iron

Note 148: Narrative Sketch: “Rhosonny’s Last Piano”

  

A modern piano is truly a precision machine, with 88 keys,

approximately 230 strings (depending on the model), and

with approximately 10,000 individual parts.

~Nicholas J. Giordano Phisics of the Piano

  

Diagram of the action of an upright piano on concertpiano.com

  

“No tools? Can’t help you.” It looked hopeless.

He was already in the 40′s. Pearl, Worth

Broadway, Franklin, Broome, Bleeker, Jane,

Somwhere in the West 20s, then around the block

From the Empire State, then 39th off Park

The next now in the far west of 54th

A very old man in a tailored suit, tall,

An 1898 Steinway upright

With an action that crumbled at the lightest touch,

“If you don’t have your own tools I can only pay

Five bucks an hour. Rebuild the action. Mend

The soundboard, restring.” Piano supply: 88

Hammers, 88 damper springs,

88 wippens, damper lift rods,

Bridle straps. pins, flanges, catchers, and jacks,

88 sticker tongues and twenty other

Pieces, none the right size, each

To be cut and sanded to uniform fit

Then regulated for a light touch

And clear sound on new strings and epoxied

Soundboard.

  

Each night’s walk back to a two

Dollar Bowery flop filled with hope and fatigue

Three days of work, each piece of each note

Of the action hand-cut and sanded to fit.

  

And from this box stored in a basement in Scarsdale

For longer than anyone knows (Rhosonny

Wondered if the old man played it as a child)

The bright new Steinway, shipped from Germany

Under steam power, loved (maybe hated

By a child forced against her will to learn

How to play) but certainly not ignored.

Then (maybe by the very child, when older)

Had some big strong men carry it down

To the basement, where it reverted to dust

Until now, this resurrection for sale.

  

After he lost an eye (he’d always wanted

To be Odysseus, not the Kyklopes) his hands

Were harder to handle. Small distances

Were sometimes dificult to judge,

That is, at the limit, to him, on the order

Of a sixteenth of an inch. First he tried factories

(He needed a job and he wanted to see

How they ran.) In the first factory

Having no concept of pace, he day by day

Grew faster and better, taking on another

Job, then doing the work of three, then five.

Management liked him. The workers not so much.

He was burning himself up and making them

Look bad. So he quit. This was assembling

Filters for jet engines, then packing them,

All easy in his sixteenth inch range. But the

Next job was silk screening metallic ink

Onto silicon substrates for digital watches.

Nearly all of the workers were women, patient,

Even paced, able to withstand the drudgery

By listening to a rock and roll radio station.

To Rhosonny, self absorbed, head ringing

From an impact, each song was a timer

Ticking while he lived life apart from

What he loved. So even though he now

Worked beyond his 16th inch limit

He pitched his entire focus and power

To higher production. Good production

Was 3,000 pieces a day with minimal

Waste. Inspectors and producers often

Switched jobs, looking through big

Magifying glasses at a stream if chips

As they flowed out of the oven. Before

Long, Rhosonny ditched the mag glass

Stopped looking at detail seeing only

Pattern and imperfect pattern. And

When he sat at the silk screen machine

Twelve thousand pieces would come from

It, he played patterns on the machines

Of notes against the rock and roll beat.

  

So he thought repairing pianos wouldn’t

Be so bad when possibly the most

Beautiful person he knew (Dave Jones —

It’s funny. His name is so common

Most people think it’s not real)

Offered to help him get a job where

He worked. He loved moving them.

And he loved the people he worked

With. The spray booth and stripping

Shed not so much. Restringing was a sort

Of meditation. Dave was the more conscientious

Worker, and faster, and wasn’t so self

Absorbed as Rhosonny, so he did most

Of the detail work, though Rhosonny

Also did some. So this job here

In Manhattan, getting this wreck

To sing, was stretching his ability.

But it sang though with more work

It would sing better but the old man

Was pissed that it took him three days

“One hundred twenty dollars for that?”

He cursed and handed him cash, “There’s

No more work here for you.” Rhosonny

Could never decide, even right up to his death,

Whether the old man had swindled him,

Or whether he actually worked too slowly or roughly.

  

The amount suggests that it was Rhosonny

Who got the short end of the arrangement.

It was the last piano he ever worked on.

  

  

Note 147: Playful Étude 03 on Fate Knocking

  

But, anyway, it was time.

~Anonymous

  

  

Calx, so archaic, chalky rock

On fire glazed over, this mind not

Lynx eyed, but calyx, the cavity of coral

Skeleton, corolla to polyp, more breccia

Or even scree, landslide at standstill

Stale. Corundum, as I said, sort of,

An opaque defile, eroded through infinite light.

  

Though the fog creeps, there are times it doesn’t

Stop at membranes, silts the links among thoughts —

Dolemite or Diorite ground to dust

And — puff — blown through the cracks of the gyve

Old age that tightens in a mesh through my brain,

A Krummholz to the ascent of dissolution.

Though wanting here now to say something

to you, having nothing whatsoever to say.

  

  

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